Even for the internet, that is some of most nonsensical rambling I've ever seen.
I hope no one close to you ever has to deal with addicition, as they're definitely not going to be helped by having you in their life!
far from it. I think you'll find I have far more genuine sympathy than most of the people on here. If I knew gazza, i'd do everything in my power to help him. I just wouldn't pretend to feel sorry for him.