No idea of what I want to do in life....
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:(I have no idea of what I want to do in life. I am confused. I feel really depressed.
I am studying law and I hate it. I don't enjoy it. I don't like it. I really hate it. The sad thing is all I know is law, I got tons of legal experience -( volunteering, placements, etc...).
I never really set my heart on law. I picked it because of my parents.
Then again, I did have a choice, I chose law. I am sticking to it and putting 100% effort in it because it is something. At least, I got a path to follow- if that makes sense.
Which is why I am confused. For me, at least I got a career path to follow, a future but then again, I am doing something that I don't enjoy or like.
I have no idea what I want to do in life.
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I will get my degree and am going to work hard at it. The question is, what will I do after? I have no idea what I want to do.
I got an LPC place next year then after that I am trainee solicitor. It is something that means I have a career at the end of it.
I am doing something that I hate...
deffo finish your quals.
what do you enjoy doing?
Apart from being lazy, I feel kinda weird saying this but I always want to do something in television, create new drama or sommat and act.
I got really good idea for a new drama show. I can image it being on screen. I am not sure how to go about writing it etc...
I am, also, reluctant to go ahead with it. What if it never works out?
Hey we have a hobby in common - being lazy
Never say never! It wont work out if you dont try. You could start writing in your spare time? Easier said than done though when studying... You could try and get a law related job in a production company and get into it that way? Or once you have finished go and do a creative writing course?
My advice would be:
- finish your degree
- but begin looking now at other job prospects. Something like getting involved in TV may involve internships which are unpaid or voluntary work. So you might need to look for a job to support you financially whilst you do that, which might involve shift work/anti-social hours
- get involved in a local drama society as they might be grateful for somebody who is interested in drama. One of my local theatres offers writing workshops on a regular basis, there will probably be something near you. It's not TV, but it's a start and you make contacts like that
Just because you have done law does not mean you have to be a lawyer. Law is a very demanding course which develops lots of skills that many employers would be interested in. You're presumably at least 21 now (or will be in the next few months) - time to do something you enjoy and not because your parents want you to. The likelihood is they'd prefer to see you doing something you enjoy anyway.
Do you have any hint that you might actually be good at writing drama? Do you have any contacts in the industry? Have you ever been involved in drama, e.g. directing, acting?
Get your qualification, get a job, then start writing. At least if it doesn't work out, you'll still be earning a living.
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I got everything set up for me. I worked really hard (even though I don't like law) to get training contract etc...
I never found time to sit down and write- not sure how to start to be honest...
I am going to finish off my degree. I am nearly 21.
I feel like my experience has been mostly law and it is all I know. My parents want me to do law. It is pretty scary going up against Asian parents.
I live in a very small village. There isn't any theatres. The nearest ones are in Liverpool/Manchester.I could commute. It is a start. I will look into it.
I know what my drama will be about. I know about the story lines. I know how it will start. I got an idea. I am not sure how to go about it.
I don't have contacts. Acting- school plays, drama. I was praised for it. I did feel happy and at ease just acting at school. That's all I done. I never went beyond that.
I suppose so.I might just do that.
You're only 21. I'm sure that seems dead old to you, but it's not. I think it's great when people get to do what they want, I wish everyone could, and you're really lucky in that you'll have a qualification that can support you while you try out different things. Set your life up in two tracks - the one that gets you a bit of money, and increases your options, and the one that gets you what you really want to do. Hopefully, if all goes well, the two tracks will merge, but if not, there's loads of other options to try.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/writersroom/writing/tips_tvdrama.shtml
http://www.google.co.uk/search?q=how+to+write+a+tv+drama&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t&rls=org.mozilla:en-GB:official&client=firefox-a#pq=how+to+write+a+tv+drama&hl=en&sugexp=kjrmc&cp=1&gs_id=b&xhr=t&q=How+to+write+a+tv+drama&pf=p&sclient=psy-ab&client=firefox-a&hs=GFS&rls=org.mozilla:en-GB%3Aofficial&source=hp&pbx=1&oq=How+to+write+a+tv+drama&aq=0&aqi=g4&aql=f&gs_sm=&gs_upl=&bav=on.2,or.r_gc.r_pw.,cf.osb&fp=53cab6a3e696b7d7&biw=1024&bih=630
http://www.google.co.uk/search?q=what+to+do+with+a+law+degree&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t&rls=org.mozilla:en-GB:official&client=firefox-a#sclient=psy-ab&hl=en&client=firefox-a&rls=org.mozilla:en-GB%3Aofficial&source=hp&q=What+can+I+do+with+a+law+degree%3F&pbx=1&oq=What+can+I+do+with+a+law+degree%3F&aq=f&aqi=g4&aql=1&gs_sm=e&gs_upl=33520l47652l0l49726l38l26l3l6l7l3l1647l17885l0.1.2.3.1.9.5.4.1l32l0&bav=on.2,or.r_gc.r_pw.,cf.osb&fp=53cab6a3e696b7d7&biw=1024&bih=630
http://www.guardian.co.uk/money/2011/jun/24/law-degree
You'll likely find there are nearer, smaller theatres to you than in Liverpool and Manchester. My nearest theatre is not in a major city
Theres a lot of people in this country who would kill for a well paid 9-5 job let alone a job at all, once you are paying a mortgage etc you will see it is a means to an end.
Permit me to quote Nietzsche:
'Have you not heard of that madman who lit a lantern in the bright morning hours, ran to the market place, and cried incessantly: "I seek God! I seek God!" - As many of those who did not believe in God were standing around just then, he provoked much laughter. Has he got lost? asked one. Did he lose his way like a child? asked another. Or is he hiding? Is he afraid of us? Has he gone on a voyage? emigrated? - Thus they yelled and laughed.
The madman jumped into their midst and pierced them with his eyes. "Whither is God?" he cried; "I will tell you. We have killed him - you and I. All of us are his murderers. But how did we do this? How could we drink up the sea? Who gave us the sponge to wipe away the entire horizon?
"How shall we comfort ourselves, the murderers of all murderers? What was holiest and mightiest of all that the world has yet owned has bled to death under our knives: who will wipe this blood off us? What water is there for us to clean ourselves? What festivals of atonement, what sacred games shall we have to invent? Is not greatness of this deed too great for us? Must we ourselves not become gods simply to appear worthy of it?
Here the madman fell silent and looked again at his listeners; and they, too, were silent and stared at him in astonishment. At last he threw his lantern on the ground, and it broke into pieces and went out. "I have come too early," he said then: "my time is not yet. This tremendous event is still on its way, still wandering; it has not yet reached the ears of men."
It has been related further that on the same day the madman forced his way into several churches and there struck up his requiem aeternam deo. Led out and called to account, he is said always to have replied nothing but: 'What after all are these churches now if they are not the tombs and sepulchers of God?"' - Nietzsche GS 125
Our entire horizon has been sponged away! And for what? For this bourgeois nightmare where only the acquisition of capital gives us purpose, gives us drive (the family seems to be taking a back seat for people my age)? And the result? We put on hold the real questions in life, questions of real and worthy value. Where is our ideology today? Where, in this age of supposed enlightenment and knowledge, is our drive to overcome Man, to overcome society? Who now actively engages in real modes of 'self-creation' under the strain, the pressure to conform to this society and its petty values? What's worse, to be sane in a world that is insane? To literally see the mindlessness is people's actions and to reproach oneself for noticing it, for being privy to true nature of human action and society? But in our age, shouldn't we be looking to greater things?
'God is dead'. Our two thousand year myth is slowly being unraveled. We thus find ourselves in a unique position in history, one in which our entire value system can be challenged, and one in which the teleology of our lives has gone. God is no longer that north star which we guide ourselves by. Now we have only ourselves to turn to, and what happens when we find the human all too human character of ourselves? As Nietzsche has it, 'what is nihilism today if not this: we have grown tired of man?' And we grow tired of him because there is nothing to fear from him anymore, and nothing that he aspires to. Our whole horizon has been sponged away.
My advice? Learn what the philosophers such as Nietzsche has to say about this 'post-modern' condition we are driving towards, and take charge of your life in a serious and a profound way, a meaningful way, much more meaningful than any lawyer will ever be. There is no answer they can directly give: this is the answer you need to provide (and not your parents, school, university, friends, lovers, siblings, God or government).
There are many of us like you who look at our lives and despair as to what it is becoming, and what it will likely become. If you're interested in the topic of self and society a recommend watching Rick Roderick's excellent lectures on youtube. Here's one to get you going: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R-vER18N4y8&feature=related