your right, i guess i just dont like admitting things have gotto me, but then again its affecting my work and ive been threatened with disciplinary action because of it.

you need to see your gp asap they will probably sign off sick but you need some help there is a lot of help out here its just getting it

i have started counselling but only had a couple of sessions. main problem is that its affecting work.

are you in a union

thanks for the help, been to see GP and given two weeks on sick, and prescribed some medication.

What meds.did they give you x

citalopram

just wondered how you are doing don't be suprised if after 2 weeks you dont see a huge change some take around 4 weeks to kick in properly

Hi well it's been just over a week now, im doing ok, due back at the drs next tuesday and think im going to ask for another couple of weeks, tablets havent kicked in yet.

hope everyones doing okay? I don't suppose anyone's around?

I'm around Beth, but I assume that you're after talking about something that we chatted about last night on FB (but for situation btw...)

As for me... Well, I suddenly realised last night that Fairy would've been coming up to her seventh birthday in a few weeks time... Made me think of two things that did - firstly it kind of made me think about how I don't feel old enough to be the potential father of a 7-year-old :/ (a friend of mine didn't help much when I told him by saying that in terms of age and legality I could be fathering a 9-year-old! ) and I also started thinking about how I seem to always imagine her (not that I do that much anymore, just every now and then) as a toddler or a pre-schooler...

Anyway, I've got better when it comes to (not) thinking about her and letting go - some stuff happened over the summer which made me realise that 'my time will come'... might go into that if anybody's interested

I'm here if you need to talk rich x

Gosh sometimes i wish this thread was still around days like today

Sal

I am usually around during the day. Not much help these days. Although a massive back operation has corrected my spinal curves(Complicated Scoliosis). A lifetime of inactivity for many muscles, makes recovery very slow and painful. I have also suffered a mental problem recently, which I am getting help for, I therefore keep quit.

I do appreciate the help I received in this thread I do regret saying certain things previously which I apologise to all for. I have changed, for the better I hope. Major demons have been exorcised for good.

Pete

I'm okay at the moment but thanks. I think it was just one of those 'sudden realisation' moments last night that took me almost by surprise. Well, not quite by surprise really - if I'm honest I've been thinking about Fairy for the past couple of weeks or so, mainly because of where I'm living at the moment and the nice(ish) weather we've been having - means that I've seen a few kids out and about playing and having fun on the beach and stuff. Just need to keep reminding myself that it didn't happen, and that I can't really move on with my life until I let her go. As I've said in the past, and has been said to me, there isn't really any problems with remembering her, but not in holding on to her in the way I have been. I am much better now than I have been though!

It's mainly just been in some of the moments when I've been lying in bed not being able to get to sleep and the myriad of thoughts have been running through my head... and then I just need to remember that I'm here now because I am moving on in my life, and - as I said above - I know my time will come. I just need to stop being jealous of people I know from school and college whose times have already come to be parents!

I'm around if anyone needs, we used to have a proper little support group (that sounds patonising, NOT how I intended it to be!) and it seems to have fizzled out!

I'll be around most of the night

Rich, like you said, your time will come, there's no rush. You're at uni now, enjoy it! There's a girl my age who I went to school with who's married and has 3 children, and I'm thinking "I'm at uni, going out, getting drunk, going to parties, and you're at home with your husband and 3 kids"

Not that theres anything wrong with that, if its what you want, which for her it is, but like you said, it will happen when the time is right

It wasnt patronizing beth it felt warm and fuzzy to me x

n'aww, yay

I'm clearing my mind by trying to write music again (need to email it to my lecturer at some point too,and update my soundcloud) but if anyone would like to listen to it, it'd be great?

You'll have to let us know when its up Beth!

I really wish this was back the way it used to be. it was such a lovely thread

This is "Insomnia"

Insomnia
http://soundcloud.com/bethaneeny/insomnia/s-3FQKc

"The main focus of this piece is the use of rhythms, and phasing. The piece was developed by
creating melodies spread over all 4 parts, with no one part treated with higher importance.
This is reflected through the dynamic markings.
The title of the piece, and the theme shown throughout was chosen, as I wanted the music to
represent how an idea is built up in the mind, often late at night when you can't sleep, and becomes
more and more intricate and complicated.
The main idea is that it reflects how thoughts are built up in the mind and become more
and more intertwined, until you can no longer make out a single idea.

Once a dynamic marking is given, such as a repeated crescendo pattern, the dynamics
are written for the first few bars, but should be continued until the next rehearsal mark.

Whilst scored for 2 pianos, for performance purposes, I would like the piece to be played on
4 pianos, each taking one part."

Giving it to my lecturer at the end of the week

I didn't post much back in the old days, but I'm still around to listen and try to help if anyone needs it. x

anyone able to help ?
Hello Very long story.
I was at college last year started augest 2010 and ended June 2011 (left in april due to pain being unable to manage) At college I didn't go as much as shall I say a normal person due to stomach pains which in July I was rushed in as an emergency had a ultrasound that morning and they found a 6cm ovarian cyst which was removed that day came as abit of a shock to me.

In Augest I contacted a friend from college what had happend and that I was ok. This friend worked with woman A at the time so she mention about me and the operation. Woman A (obessed woman) was always asking what the doctor said and what medication i was on at college which I never really noticed before now.

From Augest the woman repeatly sent me pm about the operation what happend, what was in the drip and really wanted to know every tiny detail. I of course refused as I think it is my right to not tell anyone any medical details.
I then sent another pm along the lines that I should be more open about it and called a c***

I then blocked her from my fb so she could not contact me. She went quiet for a few months and then I recieved an email from her wanting to know whats happening now. I am still not well and im trying the contrive pill to help periods.

Im worried as she is obessed with medical information and by me! I mean I'm 19 she is 41. she has a daughter a year younger than me and still...

She always has obessed over people I remember a day at college she made another woman who was amy friend cry because she kept making her go over what happend with her miscarriage after she quized her why she had been off college. Another time she went in an ambulance appartly (was off that day got told by a friend )with Natasha after she collaped after having an abortion that was another thing she found out about by the "why have you stopped smoking are you" she said yes but I won't be for long im getting rid of it.

should I just delete the email and mark them as a scam so they don't reappear and move on?
Im also worried she could get my medical notes but I don't think they would hand them out but it says on the site the person just needs to say you gave them permission to get them or would the doctor have to contact you?

the stress is getting to me and I am sure it is making my health worse

thankyou for the advice

Clair that sounds horrible, but I have absolutely have no clue what to say! *hugs* I really hope someone has better advice than that somewhere on DS!


Beth I really like that!!! Well done!!!

Claire

That sounds horrible that woman has no right

sorry i am new to this thread so hope i am welcome

course you're welcome