I can't do this anymore. I can't cope. I should have just died along with my brother

do you want to talk claire either on here or privately i dont mind x

Have pmed you. Sorry don't really want to put it in this thread

contact me whenever you feel the need claire

Hi i dont think anyone posts here but im 16 and have just found out i am pregnant. i have not told my parents yet but i told my boyfriend and he wants nothing to do with me,i dont know what to do i just feel so useless.

victoria i will pm you ok x

Hi all,
Having had major surgery 2 years ago, plus a nervous breakdown a month ago, ending in being sectioned for 4 weeks. I thought I would post.
People have been good to me on this thread. Unfortunately I have been unable to help others.
I now feel better than anytime in the last 30 years. So never give up
Thanks
Pete

Having thoughts of ending it all today; not for the first time. I feel so lonely and my existence is just pointless. I don't want to be a burden I just wanted to say that. If I knew how to do it so it was painless, I would.

hi pete i am glad to hear you feel so much better x

[quote=Millie Muppet;61006183]Having thoughts of ending it all today; not for the first time. I feel so lonely and my existence is just pointless. I don't want to be a burden I just wanted to say that. If I knew how to do it so it was painless, I would.[/QU


millie i have pmed you xxx

Thanks Sally

You were the first to post to me on DS and first again. Its been a long haul back.

Pete

it always is pete hows the family x

All are well. Including 5 Grandchildren and one Greyhound called Manny.
I trust you are well Sally.x

If anybody's interested, this is something I wrote a couple of years back and finally got round to recording! Those who know me know where this came from.

http://snd.sc/O4hyaY

well might be pushing the boat a bit too far

hows things going diss x

:l really depressed just want to go to my bed and sleep after work

hi claire you ok

i am really feeling it a bit today its a year since we lost steph my niece and it feels so empty i still read her fb page and look at her pictures she was so full of life and had so much to look forward to before she died i had been planning to go and visit her then suddenly i got the message she was gone and i felt like a really rubbish auntie x

Sorry for your loss sally, it must be so hard. It sounds like she left a wonderful legacy in her children though.

she did at 35 it was too soon for her to go but she was suffering badly and although i am glad shes no longer in pain i miss talking to her on fb i miss her wonderful nature she was a beautiful caring lady with a heart of gold x

Try not to feel like a rubbish auntie. Guilt is part of grief but you couldn't have known she was so near the end. Don't be hard on yourself, when things are bad that's the time to be kind to yourself.Take care x

thanks x

struggling a lot lately. Am three years free of self harm but intrusive thoughts about hurting myself are torturing me every day right now. Am determined not to succumb to them because I know that for me I do it to try and get attention from the medical profession. It's my stupid way of screaming at them that I need some help right now but usually results in the opposite. Am trying to keep busy by visiting friends, walking the dog etc. Have been ok as long as I'm not by myself until this evening when I sat at my friends and felt like I just wanted a good cry. I couldn't feel part of the group at all. Just speaking was too difficult.
Early night tonight I think. Just needed to write this down to get it out of my head for a minute. I haven't been full on mentally ill for quite some time now and it's scary to see the signs of it coming back again. I cant risk being hospitalised because i have nobody to take care of my dog but I really am tempted by the thought of a few weeks on the ward having a rest. I'm one of those weird people who actually likes being on a locked psych ward. It feels safe to me.The reality is I'd get a night in a&e and get sent home on my own again I think, because they know I like it there too much.
they put on my notes that i wouldn't benefit from a long hospital stay but they also said not to give me support from the crisis team because my diagnosis is borderline personality disorder and people like me don't deal with endings very well apparantly so the crisis team leaving would mess me up even more. So they make me manage on my own. Hard to do sometimes.

hi yorkie if you need to talk on here or privately please contact me whenever you need to xxx