Hi not posted in this thread before ,

I have BPD and depression , have been under the care of my local CMHT for about two years , done all the group therapy stuff etc , I was discharged from group therapy a few weeks ago and today was discharged by my shrink because ' I am doing really well ' even tho I am not coping well and the medication is not doing it's stuff anymore but the shrink was not to concerned or worried that I was skipping meds sometimes , Now I have no real support I have been told If I see my GP he has to re refer me to the CMHT within 7 days of seeing me if he feels I need it except that I am the type of person who hides away when I am low , just feel a bit lost and abandoned right now

Hey, is anyone available for a chat?

Hi I'm here off and on

I hate dating sites. Just been completely led on by a guy and now I'm so depressed because he's online all the time but not responding. GAHHHH.

If he's gonna stop responding then he's just proving he's not worth it.
I know that doesn't really help, but its true. x

I'm here aswell, could do with a chat, hope you guys are okay?

Are you ok Beth x

just seen your reply sally! I was pretty down that night, I think I'm okay now, better anyway! How are you?

Hi Beth not so good at the moment x

I'm about for a while if you want to rant or anything x

Just got a very troublesome neighbour making life very difficult because I reported her to social services for the way she treats her child a friend of mine lost her baby to someone who murdered him so it wasn't something I could ignore

I know my problems are nothing compared to everyone elses.. I dont even know why I'm posting..guess I just need to get it off my chest.

Split up with my boyfriend about 6 weeks ago. We'd been together 3 years, living together 2. I didn't see it coming. He was planning to propose. We had the ring picked and paid off. We were meant to be going to New York today, and he was gonna ask there. I'd already guessed..he confirmed it. Instead I'm just sat in my parents, but even then thats only for two weeks...otherwise I'm still living with him.
I can't move back in with my parents, its a 2 and a half hour drive away from uni and work. I've been out for so long as well I don't think I can go back..I've been here 4 days and already feel smothered.
I don't want to get back with him, not after how he's acted, but I'm so bloody alone right now. I don't feel like I can talk to any of my friends. I feel like I'm just annoying them. But I have no one now.

I don't even know what advice I want. I just don't want to start a new thread, because I know all the replies will say get over it.

I have no advice, but ((hugs))) Jane x

Thank you Beth

Just very lonely atm. At my parents and homesick..even though that place is hardly home now :/

I'm going to join this thread, not really for work advice but just to get it out.

I'm having problems at work (dont want to go into too much detail as it's a large company and no doubt someone will spot it) but to a certain extent will be resolved one way or the other now I have advice from ACAS. Basically I work part time as my husband is disabled, they want me to do more hours but I cant as my dad has recently been diagnosed with cancer and I'm looking after him. They weren't happy and it's all in all been horrible.

But my problem is not really having anyone to talk too. Cant tell my husband as he'll only worry about what will happen if I lose my job, my dad will insist he doesn't need help in the way older people do event though he does and my friend is a manager at the firm so I dont want to put her in an awkward position. I'm just so angry at how I've been treated, I've always helped before and far from there being an acknowledgement of how helpful that was it's been used to make me feel I'm letting everyone down. Anyway the anger is just bubbling away, haven't slept for days, my dog's knackered as I've been walking him constantly to stop me ranting in the house. I hate feeling like this but I cant shake this feeling of being at the edge. Any advice? I've an appointment with my GP next week.

I dont really have any advice jane either, so hugs from me too.

I would say, just from past experience, dont try and do too much all at once or too soon. This is huge for you to cope with so baby steps. And dont beat yourself up for not getting on with things as well as you should, I doubt your friends will think you a nuisance.

Duffs Make sure you're honest with your gp about how you feel. Maybe write it down and take it in. If you get there and play it down it wont help in the long run. i know, I've been there.

Thank you for the hugs. I just wish I knew what to do with myself.

Sorry I feel like I'm taking over the thread.
This is the longest in three years we've not spoken, and I miss him. But I don't know if its him or the relationship. All I know is I feel really alone right now.

Maybe a bit of both jane?

three years is a long time to be with someone and it's only natural to miss him. It's also a long time to be part of a couple and then suddenly not. All the plans, dreams for the future are gone and you have to start making new dreams and plans.

I know it's corny but time is a great healer and it does get easier. When I split from someone I loved (he was married, he forgot to mention it) I was so alone. I thought I would never stop hurting. But time passes and it gets easier. The old housewives tales of keeping busy and getting on with life are true.

I'm wondering if moving back with your parents is adding to your sense of loss, making you feel a bit of a failure for being back where you started?

I think it might be, especially knowing I have to go back to the flat I share with him next week (literally cannot afford to take any more time off work) and he'll still be there... I want him to have missed me, but I know he won't have done. I had a dream we got back together and thats messed me up a lot more than I thought it would. I was doing so well until then.

probably doesnt help that what should have been my engagement ring just came up in an advert at the side. :'(

I've started a diary again though. I found writing that to be pretty helpful before. Don't feel like I'm annoying people that way...

Jane you aren't annoying anyone I really feel for you but i have no advice I think duffs dad is right you just need to Give it time as 3 yrs is a long time Did you get my pm xxx

Nope no Pm?

I'm scared. I'd only come off antidepressants (yet again) about 2 months before this happened, and thoughts like SH have been crossing my mind. but thats REALLY letting him win. I'm better than that... easy to say when you're not in the upset crazy mindset though haha

Sent it again x

thank you x

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