Wishing you all the best for Saturday sooty. I'm sure you will have a fantastic day and I can't wait to see the pictures! xxxx

Thank you so much for your kind wishes everyone! I can't belive its nearly here!!!!!

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Congratulations Sooty


I've not been here for so long now, feels really strange posting...
Hope things are going alright for people, I'll try and become more regular again.

Things are going okay for me I think... Panicing totally about exams, even though they don't start until the end of May. I just don't think I'll achieve anything I wanted to :/

Recently dumped from a relationship I didn't know I was in. That was fun!
I keep comparing everyone to my ex, who I think still likes me, but I'm scared of it. I'm worried it would affect the rest of my life. I dunno, it sounds really stupid to put this, but I think I'm falling in love with her, but...its really hard to explain.
I think I'm still having trouble accepting the fact I'm bisexual...

Sorry about coming just to have a moan...its just me being silly. I didn't know who else to say this too though.



Beth, I know how you feel, people always ask me those types of things, its hard.

Hello again.

I don't know if anyone can remember me, but almost 3 years ago I had a chronic back problem that ended with surgery and a long period of feeling very low in mood that led me to this forum.

I gained a lot of support and help from visiting here. I have lurked quite a lot and the love and warmth has never left this site.

I was redeployed to a different place of work and was bullied because I dared to speak out.

I will return tomorrow to ask for some real advice, as tonight I am very sad

chessie x

I had some really disturbing news tonight my niece's 3 yr old was attacked by the family dog he has been put down straightaway i hasten to add poor little lenny has a 2 inch gash by his eye and a half inch one on his ear he is spending tonight in hospital following surgery he'll be home tomorrow he is a lucky boy the dog reggie was always really good with the kids and really protective its so strange I'm just relieved lenny is ok x

Chessie

I to am a returning major back surgery person(See my PM) I don't post often, I am too tired and occupied.

To Sally What a horrible thing to happen with your niece. As you know we have 2 Greyhounds. They are dogs so we try to be as carefull as possible with our Grand Children when they are about.

Dors if you see this, I hope you are OK. We all miss you but you must do what is right for you.

Everybody else, I do keep a casual eye on here and hope those with issues are coping.

I will return

Petexxxxxxxxxx

Firstly Sally, what a horrible thing to happen to your niece's little boy, and how sad that the family dog suddenly turned like that - there will be very mixed feelings all round I'm sure, but the main thing is that your great nephew recovers fully and doesn't have any long-term issues as a result of his trauma.

Chessie - how lovely to see you again after all this time, but I'm sorry to hear you're feeling sad. Have a ((((hug)))) (and I hope your back can take it these days).

I hope Sooty's wedding went without a hitch (scuse the pun)! I wonder where they went for their honeymoon?

Pete, it's nice to see you posting from time to time. Hope all is well with you.

lorry x

Lorry I have PM'd you.

You have put into words much better than me about the Dog attack. We are Greyhound lovers but are well aware of the the outcome of a dog attack.

Petexxxxxxx

nicky doesn't hesitate where the kids are concerned she loves her dogs dearly but the kids are her world its just so odd reg was the kids protector he would open the door into robyns room at night and sleep on the foot of her bed watching the door at all times so to say it was out of character is an understatement lenny is home now when he got home stella the remaining dog gave him a big sloppy kiss and he was not at all scared so that was a good thing then they curled up together on the sofa for a nap! last week robyn was diagnosed with pneumonia on top of that they also said as well as retts she now has dystonia too all this and a new baby to contend with nicky is a super mum

Need to pop in here and have a quick moan. I'm just back from a week away in Blackpool and seem to be having the post holiday blues. I was kept so busy whilst I was away yet since coming home I've gone straight back into the routine of sleeping too much and eating rubbish food. I've been meaning to go to the shop for the last 4 hours but still haven't got dressed and just want to go back to bed. Silly thing is that I know I'm capable of doing more because I managed it last week, although I did have a blip after 4 days and needed to spend some time on my own.
I'm also worried about my dad who has terminal cancer. He has another scan next week to find out if his latest chemo has helped slow down the progress of the disease. We seem to be living from one scan to another at the moment. Of course it's much worse for him than it is for me. I just struggle to know how to talk to him about it.

Hi Yorkie, it's hard getting back into a routine after a holiday at the best of times isn't it? It's no wonder though, that with the cloud of your dad's illness hanging over you, your instinct is to hide under the duvet and sleep to block it out, at least that's how it looks to me. Have you considered you might be clinically depressed, as that is one of the symptoms for some people, wanting to sleep all the time. I just wondered because it's what happens to me when I go into my blue phases, although I'm not in the same sad situation as yourself. It might be a good idea to see if your doctor could give you any support though if you haven't already thought of that.

It must be very hard to know what to say to your dad. I can only suggest you try to act positive/upbeat around him even if you don't feel like that inside, also ask him how he's feeling rather than avoid the issue, as he might actually want to talk about it. I always ask myself what I'd prefer people to do or say to me if I was in that situation, but you know your dad best so only you can judge really.

Meanwhile you know you can always come and vent on here as much as you like.

thanks lorry. I gave myself a kick up the bum and went out for a couple of hours in the sunshine. I have bouts of depression fairly regularly but the meds I'm on tend to help a lot with that now. I think you're right, it's just the usual holiday comedown. Being away was a nice break from the mundane day to day routine. I've decided I need to be more active now though and have applied to be a volunteer dog walker for the Cinnamon Trust which should get me out more.

Yorkie what a great idea and well done for finding some motivation today.

I knw it's 4Am but aamaly sccared. Got bohemmi rhapsody by queen on repeat and have spen the last hour trying to get to the railway tracks. I'm tooo scrared to call anybody cos I don't want to go to hospital again.

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OMG, just looked in on the thread for the first time in months and it's all been happening. I'm glad it's still here for people and so sorry I've not been around. So much to reply to, I hardly know where to begin. TBH, I tend to have been hanging round the 'lighter' side of DS in recent times.

Many, many congratulations for Mr. & Mrs. Sooty. The rest I might try to reply to in due course.

Sal, I hope you got my text in reply to the awful news about your nephew. Hope he's on the mend.


Am on the finishing strait of the PhD, which is a long haul, and taking up lots of mental energy. I chill out on FB, playing games when the heat's off. Have had something of a breakdown in recent times but not really advertised it on the rest of DS (as I've been using DS time to kind of 'tune out'), so this post will look out of conjunction with other things I've posted in recent times. Just haven't felt like talking about it.

So sorry for not being around. Will try to pick things up, but probably more so later on in the year when the heat's off. Love to everyone. Jonesyboy, I'm sorry not to have replied to your pm, yet, but I've been thinking of you lately.

Christ, I've just had a flick back and am staggered....it's like a little homecoming on here! Nice to see some other familiar (DS) names here, too....Woo!
OMG, I feel like I've gone back in time.
Damn, crying, now. Time to go...

I've not been in for a week or so and look what I missed - Dors is back. Need a jumping up and down looking excited smiley.

Good to see you hun, you have been missed a lot. Great to see the Phd is making progress, we knew you could do it. Hope you are making progress too, last year was a tough one for you, so make sure you take time to look after yourself (((HUG)))


Sal, sorry to hear about your neice's little boy, you must have been upset for him but also for the dog, I know what an animal lover you are. Hope everyone involved is OK now and you are all recovering from the shock. You have so much to cope with in your family, you are an inspiration how you all support each other through it.

Yorkie, I love your idea of being a dog walker, fresh air in the company of a dog can be a right tonic. It won't take the problems away, but it will provide a distraction.

Don't know if Mr & Mrs Sooty went away, but maybe they are having an extended honeymoon courtesy of the volcano.

My crisis, very small after some of the others I've posted, is that I graduate next Friday, and all I keep thinking of is six years ago when I graduated with a BA, my guests were my Mum & 2 brothers. Since then, one brother and Mum died a couple of years apart, and everytime I start planning I find myself crying. Still, I shall have my kids and remaining brother there, and I tell myself I should be glad for what I have (Pollyanna syndrome again!) not looking at what I don't have, but there is a huge sadness.

Sorry, been a while since I whinged on here, but I know I am among friends.

Hugs to all, hope the sun is shining on you, Polly xx

Hugs to all. I could do with a bit of advice if anyone's around?

Theres a girl I know from the schoolbus, shes 3 years younger than me, but I guess she sees me as a like an "older 6th form person to rely on"
She's told me shes addicted to 2 pain meds, and is suicidal. She's been saying this for a week, but her status on facebook was "thats it...SUCICIDE TIME...where the nearest rope shop! uhhhhhhhhh! i'm soo close to jumping out of my window! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS WORLD...AHHHHHHHHHHH! Beth help me!"

So I've tried talking to her any everything, I'm seeing her form tutor first thing tomorrow morning (training day today), and I've promised to meet this girl in town this afternoon. It's going to be horribly awkward, but she made me promise to see her, before she told me anything

THis bit, I guess, is my fault, for allowing her to trust me with things, and for being close to her as a friend - she said she think'she's bi, and she likes me. Now, me saying something along the lines of

something along the lines of that I barely know her, and I can be here for advice and im not gonna judge her or tell anyone around school that she knows , but a relationship sint right for me right now, and especially with the age thing, and I have all my own stuff going on right now, my first exam is a week today

isn't going to help her at all, :/, and while I want to help her as much as I can, I don't think she's realised that I have alot of my own stuff going on right now and her piling her pressures on isn't helped me at all

Any advice would be great!

Hiya Polly *waves enthusiastically*. Mixed blessings, I guess, for your graduation. I'm still debating whether or not I want to graduate from this PhD, as dad won't be there, but I'm sure he'd want 'the works'. But, I can empathise. Very well done though. You're truly a star!

Jonesyboy...thanks for your pm. Will reply. So relieved the little one is doing well.

Beth. This needs taking out of your hands. I think if this girl was genuinely suicidal, she wouldn't be doing what she is. She's crying out for help, 'acting out'...whatever way you want to describe it but you cannot be responsible for how she behaves, and what she does. Don't allow her to 'make' you do anything. If you want to be the 'grown up' in this situation, be friendly by all means, but set clear boundaries. Also, refer her on to teaching staff. It sounds like she has latched on to you because you can identify with how she feels, but, as you rightly acknowledge, you've too much stuff of your own to deal with right now and letting things become too intense will be of little benefit to either of you in the longer term. I might sound harsh, but if she needs professional help, don't get out of your depth.

I'm speaking to her head of year first thing tomorrow morning. The reason I said I'd meet her is that she said she was meeting some 27 year old guy off the internet, (who could be ANYONE ) and would I see her afterwards - I've persuaded her NOT to see this guy (or so she says, I'll find out this afternoon). She then said "will you still promise to meet me if I tell you something"
me - I'm not promising anything until I know what it is
her - I think im bi, and that I like you, um, alot
and promise, this part has to never get out to anyone- I feel like throwing myself under a car right now

so I sort of have to go this afternoon, simply to make sure she is okay, and I'm in town anyway

I managed to calm her down, get her to log off msn and go to sleep, and of course I'm telling her head of year that comment especially, its just she needs to see that I do have my own stuff goin on, I have exams starting next monday.

As of tomorrow morning, her teachers will know, and they'll be able to deal with it much better than I can, and they'll be able to help her - all I can really do at the moment is listen to her. And I probably sound realy harsh, but although she trusts me, she needs to not be close to me, I leave the school in a year, and I know that at the moment, I'm the only one she trusts

Good for you, Beth. Hope it all went okay.

Ok Dors, I await to hear from you when you are able.

Difficult one to decide about your graduation. One thing I do think is if you don't, you may regret not going, in later life. I know it would be hard going to graduate however, think how proud your Dad would be. I am sure he would be looking down on you.

Dad got his scan results today. He phoned me to say it was positive in that he is allowed to have another three months of chemo, which is aimed at slowing the spread of the cancer. The tumour in his neck, which is a secondary, had also shrunk a little. The cancer was originally in his kidney. Then he said ''and the others aren't any bigger either''. Turns out there are now tumours in his lungs and stomach and he'd been keeping it from me for months. I hate that he feels unable to tell me stuff because he's so worried about how I will cope with it, due to my mental illness. Not knowing everything just makes me worry even more. He realised he'd let it slip by accident and changed the subject, so I let him, as that's what he needs to do at present. I just wish I could be more of a support to him. I'll be heading over for a visit next week though, so need to practice putting on my positive face and letting him think all is well.