Originally Posted by
kelly82:
“My Jessica is in at 6pm,shes actually booked in to be pts this time, such a strange coincidence with both dogs on the same day.
we have been putting it off since about 2 weeks before christmas when she really went downhill fast. its so difficult having to make the life or death decision, i feel like im killing her before her time, but i know its for the best as id rather she went before the pain got too much and she had no more fun happy days. shes on a fairly good day today but she hasnt been walked since last week, i know when i take her out in a while she will come home limping, stiffen up and il be lifting her to her feet for the rest of the day. she will struggle to squat to do her business which means more mess in the house no doubt. i cant let her go without 1 more walk though, she loves going, and tries so hard to bounce around like she used to 
today will be one of the hardest days of my life.
i hope all goes smoothly with your Jess, if it does come to that final act of love for you too. My thoughts are with you and your family
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Thank you kelly82 and everyone who replied
My Jess seems to be OK today, so I feel even more guilty now

Went out for an hour and when I came back she was wagging her tail and I even got a play bow out of her, but she wouldn't play when I tried and went back in her bed....
God, this is so hard! I think sometimes, like today, she is OK, but the good days have become rare now.
It sounds awful but if she were having an off day today it wouldn't feel quite as hard...obviously I don't want her to be ill and should be happy she is happy today, but I know it won't last

Still, she had been on the sofa whilst I was out (she knows she is not allowed!) and sunbathing, all the cushions were on the floor when I got home and dog hairs on the throw

So perhaps it was more of a guilty tail wagging when I got home

Well, I'll see what the vet reckons and I'll be back here later to let you all know how things went.
My thoughts are with you kelly82, we will both see our Jess's again someday I'm sure x