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Has Cheeky done a transcript of lovers tiff - if not she should - nipping onto twitter to ask her
Not sure what thread it is on though. Will see if I can track it down for you. Babs, can usually come up with the goods though x
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*waves sheepishly*
Hello?? Can I come back in please? I have been looking for the fire exit for this thread but can't seem to find it Just wanted to come back on briefly to express how overwhelmed I have been by your love. I'm truly touched by the compassion and genuine concern that you've shown to me. I am very grateful and humbled by all the kind tweets and PM's I have received .. and will get round to replying to individuals when I can. Just finished reading back through the thread and want to say how deeply sorry I am for causing such chaos and upset on here. I owe everyone a massive apology and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. You all mean more to me than you could ever know.. each day you help me through my troubles and sorrows .. and the fact that I found such incredible friendships over the internet, because of John and Josie brings that little bit of sunshine into my grey, cold, lonely life. Yes, I do have some things going on in my life making me super stressed and constantly tearful.. I try to just get on with it, paint on a smile and keep plodding on .. but that's not always easy to do and I fail more often than I succeed, these days. It is all getting a bit much for me and I do struggle a LOT but it's life, eh? Mix that with a hormonal, stupidly over sensitive and stubborn as hell young woman (toxic combination, I know) and you have ME .. Rianne .. There are so many things I would confide in you all (with relief) as it may help you get a glimpse as to why I am at an emotional low right now .. but I can't share that on the thread; not because I don't want some of you knowing .. I just don't particularly want anyone who may lurk here to know the ins and outs of my personal and family life. I beat myself up constantly – every single day of my life about anything and everything .. I've always given myself such a hard time since I was a little girl.. and I don't think that will ever change. Kay's right about me having selective reading – I only see the bad .. even at school when my teachers would praise my work highly and follow it up with some constructive criticism all I would hear was what I had done wrong... so then I would study and work my butt off to do better even if it meant going without sleep or food. So when I see that I have upset people I hate myself.. I already felt pretty crappy as it was but reading back the fall-out caused by me has had me in floods of tears. The huge, ugly atmosphere that followed (even when I wasn't here) was all my fault – 100%.. it was only me that was responsible for that .. and it was the last thing I ever wanted to have happen on here I wasn't throwing a tantrum, I wasn't seeking attention when I said my goodbyes I meant to leave. I WANTED to leave this thread behind because I so fearful of putting my foot in something or causing tensions or people feeling uncomfortable or that they want to leave .. so that does make me hesitant to return, I only have for now as so many people have asked. My biggest worry in life is (even more than my phobia of swans) is upsetting people .. especially people I have grown to care very much for.. and so I do worry that something I write could come across as offensive or that it will hurt someone's feelings. And I don't want to do that! Seriously, I know I posted about being off-topic .. but I really, really, reaaaaaally do not have any problems with it. In the slightest .. I am so sorry that my original post (which was supposed to be more jokey than serious but that definitely didn't come over) and those that subsequently followed made some people feel like I was going off on one .. (I can understand why some would have read it that way having re-read it myself now) but it was truly truly NEVER posted in that spirit. I wish I hadn't said anything about it and had just kept my big mouth shut as then none of this would have ever happened I'm sorry I wasn't in the mood to laugh at myself or laugh at anything (for that matter) the past few days .. I'm not lacking a sense of humour .. I just wasn't in that cheery place of laughter land, hopefully I can hop back on the express train soon as heaven knows, I could do with a hell of a hearty laugh! I don't think of myself as some heroic mediator or that I'm the one everyone ought to be in agreement with .. and if that is the kind of self-righteous vibe I'm giving off, I seriously have to rethink my writing style and tone. On reflection of the posts, I don't believe the 'on-topic' posts were meant as digs or swipes at me. I know it was harmless banter but I understand why this was misinterpreted by my friend. I can also assure you all it was not Ferfs who gave me a heads up on what was perceived to be mocking. I always intended to read the comments back through, obviously.. but I made a conscious decision not to do so last night as I wasn't in the right state of mind and maybe yesterday I would have taken some of the posts completely the wrong way .. so I'm glad I waited until today.. I am prone to paranoia etc (won't bore you with details) .. so it wasn't that I was accusing the entire thread of having a laugh at my expense .. I can see that you weren't. But when I'm told something like that, it isn't that I automatically believed them or assumed this was the case but I retreat and then lash out (which is what I did on twitter with this tweet 'Thank YOU for the heads up that they are laughing at me! They'll be happy to know I won't be back then' I'm not confrontational by nature (especially with those I care about) so I would never come on here all guns blazing, accusing or pointing the figure based upon a 'tip off' (of something that wasn't exactly the case) I can have an almighty rant, mind .. you've seen those but those are about things that anger, frustrate, disappoint me or are about people I do not care for. I don't expect anyone to understand how my head works because I'm still trying to figure this out for myself.. all I can do is say how sincerely sorry I am and hope that you know I have a good heart and my intentions were NOT malicious. I am so so so so so sorry that lovely lovely lovely people like Wendy and Andrea etc have been upset thinking they upset me. And that others such as BB Basher, Loops, Dreamer etc.. in turn were made to feel uncomfortable, hurt or offended by me. I don't want ANYONE leaving or taking a break because I am the one to blame, I am the person who has been out of order here.. no matter what is going on with me I can't justify making people feel like this way. I feel horrible and totally ashamed. I hope those leaving will re-consider and I SWEAR I will never mention on/off topic-ness EVER EVER EVER again!! I don't want to intrude on the Sanatorium but hopefully they will see this message too. Love you all so much x x x x x ![]() |
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New thread wow wee! Just shows eh nothing better than the JJJ Thread x Well Done everyonex
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you keep E in your house why you secret raver you
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has anyone been watching the hollyoaks murders ?
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Has Cheeky done a transcript of lovers tiff - if not she should - nipping onto twitter to ask her
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All my love to Wendy and Pickles
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Who will Silas murder next nearly all the women fit the profile don't they ?
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BFs home x speak soon
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Oh I see Cheeky is back
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Good to see you back Cheeky
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Evening all, hope y'all well. Welcome back to the fold Cheeky, that sounds like we are all sheep
I was on here briefly last night so I dont know properly what went on, but I called a few guys not a nice name, so I have to apologise, I dont know what came over me . but its just been pointed out that the only post I made last night has just been mocked, I dont care I tell you I know what I saw, I have a 46" screen ![]()
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Evening all, hope y'all well. Welcome back to the fold Cheeky, that sounds like we are all sheep
I was on here briefly last night so I dont know properly what went on, but I called a few guys not a nice name, so I have to apologise, I dont know what came over me . but its just been pointed out that the only post I made last night has just been mocked, I dont care I tell you I know what I saw, I have a 46" screen ![]() ![]() Soo come on tell me - what did you see? |
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*waves sheepishly*
Hello?? Can I come back in please? I have been looking for the fire exit for this thread but can't seem to find it Just wanted to come back on briefly to express how overwhelmed I have been by your love. I'm truly touched by the compassion and genuine concern that you've shown to me. I am very grateful and humbled by all the kind tweets and PM's I have received .. and will get round to replying to individuals when I can. Just finished reading back through the thread and want to say how deeply sorry I am for causing such chaos and upset on here. I owe everyone a massive apology and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. You all mean more to me than you could ever know.. each day you help me through my troubles and sorrows .. and the fact that I found such incredible friendships over the internet, because of John and Josie brings that little bit of sunshine into my grey, cold, lonely life. Yes, I do have some things going on in my life making me super stressed and constantly tearful.. I try to just get on with it, paint on a smile and keep plodding on .. but that's not always easy to do and I fail more often than I succeed, these days. It is all getting a bit much for me and I do struggle a LOT but it's life, eh? Mix that with a hormonal, stupidly over sensitive and stubborn as hell young woman (toxic combination, I know) and you have ME .. Rianne .. There are so many things I would confide in you all (with relief) as it may help you get a glimpse as to why I am at an emotional low right now .. but I can't share that on the thread; not because I don't want some of you knowing .. I just don't particularly want anyone who may lurk here to know the ins and outs of my personal and family life. I beat myself up constantly – every single day of my life about anything and everything .. I've always given myself such a hard time since I was a little girl.. and I don't think that will ever change. Kay's right about me having selective reading – I only see the bad .. even at school when my teachers would praise my work highly and follow it up with some constructive criticism all I would hear was what I had done wrong... so then I would study and work my butt off to do better even if it meant going without sleep or food. So when I see that I have upset people I hate myself.. I already felt pretty crappy as it was but reading back the fall-out caused by me has had me in floods of tears. The huge, ugly atmosphere that followed (even when I wasn't here) was all my fault – 100%.. it was only me that was responsible for that .. and it was the last thing I ever wanted to have happen on here I wasn't throwing a tantrum, I wasn't seeking attention when I said my goodbyes - I meant to leave. I WANTED to leave this thread behind because I'm so fearful of putting my foot in something or causing tensions or people feeling uncomfortable or that they want to leave .. so that does make me hesitant to return, I only have for now as so many people have asked. My biggest worry in life is (even more than my phobia of swans) is upsetting people .. especially people I have grown to care very much for.. and so I do worry that something I write could come across as offensive or that it will hurt someone's feelings. And I don't want to do that! Seriously, I know I posted about being off-topic .. but I really, really, reaaaaaally do not have any problems with it. In the slightest .. I am so sorry that my original post (which was supposed to be more jokey than serious but that definitely didn't come over) and those that subsequently followed made some people feel like I was going off on one .. (I can understand why some would have read it that way having re-read it myself now) but it was truly truly NEVER posted in that spirit. I wish I hadn't said anything about it and had just kept my big mouth shut as then none of this would have ever happened I'm sorry I wasn't in the mood to laugh at myself or laugh at anything (for that matter) the past few days .. I'm not lacking a sense of humour .. I just wasn't in that cheery place of laughter land, hopefully I can hop back on the express train soon as heaven knows, I could do with a hell of a hearty laugh! I don't think of myself as some heroic mediator or that I'm the one everyone ought to be in agreement with .. and if that is the kind of self-righteous vibe I'm giving off, I seriously have to rethink my writing style and tone. On reflection of the posts, I don't believe the 'on-topic' posts were meant as digs or swipes at me. I know it was harmless banter but I understand why this was misinterpreted by my friend. I can also assure you all it was not Ferfs who gave me a heads up on what was perceived to be mocking. I always intended to read the comments back through, obviously.. but I made a conscious decision not to do so last night as I wasn't in the right state of mind and maybe yesterday I would have taken some of the posts completely the wrong way .. so I'm glad I waited until today.. I am prone to paranoia etc (won't bore you with details) .. so it wasn't that I was accusing the entire thread of having a laugh at my expense .. I can see that you weren't. But when I'm told something like that, it isn't that I automatically believed them or assumed this was the case but I retreat and then lash out (which is what I did on twitter with this tweet 'Thank YOU for the heads up that they are laughing at me! They'll be happy to know I won't be back then' I'm not confrontational by nature (especially with those I care about) so I would never come on here all guns blazing, accusing or pointing the figure based upon a 'tip off' (of something that wasn't exactly the case) I can have an almighty rant, mind .. you've seen those but those are about things that anger, frustrate, disappoint me or are about people I do not care for. I don't expect anyone to understand how my head works because I'm still trying to figure this out for myself.. all I can do is say how sincerely sorry I am and hope that you know I have a good heart and my intentions were NOT malicious. I am so so so so so sorry that lovely lovely lovely people like Wendy and Andrea etc have been upset thinking they upset me. And that others such as BB Basher, Loops, Dreamer etc.. in turn were made to feel uncomfortable, hurt or offended by me. I don't want ANYONE leaving or taking a break because I am the one to blame, I am the person who has been out of order here.. no matter what is going on with me I can't justify making people feel like this way. I feel horrible and totally ashamed. I hope those leaving will re-consider and I SWEAR I will never mention on/off topic-ness EVER EVER EVER again!! I don't want to intrude on the Sanatorium but hopefully they will see this message too. Love you all so much x x x x x ![]() , then you will always find me in pm with an ear that's good at listening. Now pull up a chair, sit down and start posting. This is home Cheeky Chops and welcome back. Loves you
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Now what would make me happier is if .....
Loops came on and posted some gleeful Glee songs or wonderful Westlife vids ![]() BB Basher came on to give me some Buble banter ![]() Andrea came back to be the angel that she is Heidi and Phil were JUST HERE!!!!!! *Snuggles and sparkles* xxx |
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I am feeling a little better but I have had a lot of sleep this weekend so I am hoping that the suppressants have kicked in.Your heart watch programme sounds good gentle exercise that is what I need
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Ha ha - I have a 42" so yours is bigger than mine!
Soo come on tell me - what did you see? the Ring its a Chanel Diamond Ring - very expensive wasnt there a film about a ring - something spooky seem to remember. |
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Evening all, hope y'all well. Welcome back to the fold Cheeky, that sounds like we are all sheep
I was on here briefly last night so I dont know properly what went on, but I called a few guys not a nice name, so I have to apologise, I dont know what came over me . but its just been pointed out that the only post I made last night has just been mocked, I dont care I tell you I know what I saw, I have a 46" screen ![]() ![]() ![]()
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Well done Wendy - first post!!!
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well done wendy for first post,
up to episode 23 of bb11, josie has said she fancied john james in his footy kit, but hasnt actually says she really fancies him, i have noticed john james seems to follow her though, i think he finds sunshine a pain in the butt am i really looking for a pie in the sky to think he will come back, that they will ever be friends again still on the bench but my bum is shuffling about a bit, if he can shoulder shuffle i can bum shuffle Bum shuffle eh
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Cheeky - I'm not a soppy kind of girl
So can't say much - but maybe give us a twirl In your post you say there's a lot going on in your life Which obviously causes you trouble and strife I'm glad you've taken off your jacket and scarf And hope we can now once again have a laugh I hope everything works out as it should And everything ends up all good in the hood Everyone has issues - their own individual flaws If we didn't - we'd be a gang of bores But I need tell you if you want a sympathetic ear Lover can listen and I'm always here! |
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All my love to Wendy and Pickles
![]() And extra big cuddles to Dreamer, BB Basher, Loops, Andrea and Annie (your words made me cry!!) xxx
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Mines only 14" and i did'nt see a thing
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It wasnt that riveting really, just Josie on bbots had on her bulgari bracelet (think thats how you spell it), the one Tara Palmer whats- her -name gave her and wait for it
the Ring its a Chanel Diamond Ring - very expensive wasnt there a film about a ring - something spooky seem to remember. So once again the ring had an outing And Cheeky has come right out of her pouting So everyone can look on the bright side Come out and play - stop trying to hide |
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Oh I see Cheeky is back
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Welcome back Cheeky it's good to see you. We all have our moments eh ![]() Quote:
Evening all, hope y'all well. Welcome back to the fold Cheeky, that sounds like we are all sheep
I was on here briefly last night so I dont know properly what went on, but I called a few guys not a nice name, so I have to apologise, I dont know what came over me . but its just been pointed out that the only post I made last night has just been mocked, I dont care I tell you I know what I saw, I have a 46" screen ![]() ![]() ![]() Quote:
Ha ha - I have a 42" so yours is bigger than mine!
Soo come on tell me - what did you see?
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Evening all, Cheeky so glad to see you back where you belong
Judy Josie had a ring on but it wasn't the chanel one maggi x
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well come back cheeky,
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