Hi everybody----so much to say but how to fit it all in.
First of all thanks to everybody who said Happy Birthday to me both here and on Twitter. It made me feel very special.
While we are on the subject of birthdays---Happy Birthday today to Cheeky. Hope you have a wonderful day today.
Sorry I didn't get on to the thread yesterday on my birthday but after landing just before midnight at Gatwick had to drive home arriving about three and then make a fuss of puppy who had missed hubby and I and then grab about three hours sleep before getting up for a full day's work.
Luckily boss said I could work from home in the morning which I did in pyjamas and dressing gown.
After work I had cards and presents to open, Chinese take away to eat with family, daughters to tell all about holiday to and listen to their traumas of looking after house, dog, and three cats for week, husband's family to receive visit from, little bit of Children in Need to watch and then blessed sleep.
So this morning ironically have woken up on a Saturday at the crack of dawn and had a skim through as much as possible of the thread that I have missed while I have been away
As well as all the lovely birthday messages I must thank Lover for the poem written in my honour------how proud was I-----also how proud was I to have my name as a word answer in your word association game last night.
I have missed you all. It was good to be able to grab half an hours Internet while I was away just to check on happenings but I did miss being able to have a daily check to see if there was any news.
I had a great luxurious holiday. Cape Verde was wonderfully relaxing and luxurious but I wouldn't advise anyone to go there if they want night life, entertainment and lots of activity as they are new to tourism and haven't established that side yet.
What they have got in their favour is wonderful weather, lovely beaches, very friendly native people and in our case a very luxurious resort.
Luckily my hubby and I just needed a rest to get away from the pressures of life here for a week and it suited us. We had fantastic all inclusive five star accommodation in a resort which had only been opened in May so was still feeling very new, superbly clean, and very impressive. It was set on a lovely beach with a fantastic beach bar serving food and free alcohol and cocktails all included in the price. There were then three more swimming pools one with a swim up to bar---again free alcohol all included, and then two more restaurants serving good food.
Our accommodation had been named as a suite when I did the late booking and turned out to be a villa in the grounds of the resort very close to the beach with three bedrooms and three bathrooms for my husband and I to get lost in. We also had a lounge and kitchen with washing machine , oven, microwave and dishwasher----the latter three which we didn't need as we had inclusive food cooked for us in the restaurants so would have been crazy to have cooked our own. We then had a sun terrace upstairs and our own personal garden with our own personal small swimming pool.
The height of luxury.
Well, amidst all this pampering I did manage to write a couple more chapters of the Golden Story so will post the first of those a bit later.
Even out there on holiday I couldn't get away from thinking about John and Josie----sometimes in a positive way and sometimes I will admit in a negative way.
I had so many ideas running through my head of ---'why' 'when' 'how'---all the usuals. I'm not going to write down any of my wild ideas----that's what they are--'wild ideas'--- and they are going to stay inside my head.
What I will say is that reading through the last week on here and a little on twitter there still seem to be so many 'differing opinions' of the whole business that I do wonder if we will ever get any satisfactory answers or if we will ever get any conclusion to all of this that will ever sit right in the majority of people's minds and hearts.
I did find Lover's second poem last night quite sad in a way---not because I saw it as her surrendering her toes----but more saying that she doesn't really know if the right conclusion to this story is capable of being reached.
The other question is ----if the right conclusion is reached is it possible that we will never know that it has been. That might sound a bit confusing but are all the smoke and mirrors and the red herrings there for a purpose not just to confuse us for now, but to leave us guessing for a long time to come.
Anyway must stop now as this post is getting much too deep.
Once again thanks for all your good wishes. Look out for the next part of the Golden Story later and I will leave you with just two thoughts.
What is the plural of 'a GBF'?
When is a Great Dane not a Great Dane?
Not questions I'm expecting an answer to.
Just saying
Take care
Lyn xx
i'm feeling a bit disallusioned with it all. i'm no longer on the bench, which i have to admit, i really find really hard to come to terms with & also, i'm almost embarressed to admit 
i'm really not that bothered about seeing pics or reading posts about josie & luke(y!)at the mo 
i dont even look at her twitter much, as it seems to be all about him & that's not why i follow her. i mean, i,ve got a man, but i dont put pics of him on twitter or talk about him....i don't feel the need!!
