Hi all

Am sure some of you had read a previous thread of mine about my beloved cat Suschi who had to be put to sleep due to injuries beyond repair.

Its 6wks on since that fatal day and like all said...the pain did become easier. I'm at the stage now that i firmly believe that the pain i am feeling now will not get better or any easier years down the line. I thinks its due to the fact that i have NEVER lost anyone in my life. Luckily i haven't yet been to a funeral of someone very dear to me...execpt my grandad, but i never fully got on with him and to be honest...losing my beloved Suschi was worse. As you may know she was 16yrs and very healthy. I haven't stopped crying...i never will but it isn't half as bad as it was in the first few weeks. I have these moments where i will stop and think about her and then the tears fall. I will forever wish she was still here...she was sooooooo special. I wanted to say thanks for all those kind words everyone posted, it helped more then you can imagine.

I feel your pain.

I have lost countless relatives as well as my beloved dog and cat Bonnie and Clyde.

I couldn't even think about them without bursting into tears, but now I can. I can't think too much or I will, but just to mention them in passing is bearable.

I can't, however, imagine what it was like for you losing Suschi in such a horrible way.

I know it's silly, but if you want to PM me, you can. I am always here.

That also makes it alot harder cause it wasn't illness or old age that got her...it was some idoit who didn't look where he was driving or a stupid nut who decided to beat on her

(((((((((hug)))))))))

i think im having a few bad days. I keep thinking about her and i've cried everyday for the last 4days or so. I stopped crying everyday about 2/3wks after but with all these awful stories hitting the news it brings me right back. Ohhh if i can only have her sitting on my lap right now.

Have a big hug, I lost my Skye one year ago today due to a housefire. She had asked out in the morning but it was cold and I was off to work so I kept her in "until later". Later never came. Can't forgive myself!

Hugs going out to you. Feeling guilty is the natural mourning process. I feel guilty cause i couldn't protect her.

FCUK, I read and commented on your other thread., There is NOTHING you could have done, cats won't let you look after them 24/7. And you know she was with you, where she wanted to be at the end.
You will still cry, but the times between crying will get longer, I assure you. I felt embarrassed because I was still crying about my cat for a few months, but it was natural, and as time went on not as frequent.

I swore I would never have cats again at the time, but now I have 2 - I get scared when they are out too long but I wouldn't stop them going out. They are nearly 4 now, and I value every day they are with me.

Remember you had her for a long time (that's part of the grieving) but value that time together.
In time, you may have another as you are clearly a loving 'cat person', when someone told me that I said 'No way'.

Sending you hugs. Go through the grief, it hurts, but it heals.xxx

I do have other cats Shelly and Heidi, but i did adopt another cta called Evie a few weeks back. Not to replace Suschi...but to give a loving home to another cat. I know what you mean about the times between crying become longer...cause it has. I was at a point where i cried literally every hour for 2 whole weeks since that day. And now it's 2/3times a week. I imagine in a years time it'll be round once a month. But truth is...i will never stop crying for her...even if it's once a year. This morning i was looking through all the photos of her....one of them particulary grabbed me. She was sitting in my mums back looking as if to say 'yes im here....and what....it's comfy. Let me sleep' lol. How can i post pics on here......?????

For 16yrs she was right by my side...always there when i got in from school and STILL always there waiting outisde my bedroom when i got home from work. Now...i have Evie to do that cause she follows me everywhere lol just like Suschi did.

Guilt is natural to feel and it wont end anytime soon i dont think. I remembered i had an account wth photobucket, check the link out. Those are pictures of Suschi. Does she look her age??? Lol

http://s112.photobucket.com/albums/n196/diana-1990/

don't women knock down cats then?
also when you are driving at 30 or 40 mph and a cat or any other animal for that matter runs out in front of you there isn't much you can do about it.

Sorry...he OR She.

Check out pictures of my cat Suschi ^^^^^

It's perfectly normal to feel how you do. 6 weeks later or 6 years later. You won't ever forget her but it will get easier. I still get tears when I see a dog that looks like mine and he died 10 years ago. Tears show you care so don't feel bad about shedding them xx

No need to answer that post, was irrelevant to your issue.

Those pictures are beautiful. Also remember that it was 16 years of yours, and hers, life - that's a good age for a cat anyway. In time you will have fond memories and the grief will lesson, but for now go with it, perfectly natural, And post on here anytime you need support, you may have gathered there are plenty here for you who understand.

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Oh god your so right!! People here are sooo understanding and there have been loads of positive words that have made me feel so much better. I honestly think a small part of me is still clinging onto the fact that she hasn't gone...that she is still here. I'm still in such massive shock about it all and i constantly wonder where she is. I've never had such a huge shock like i did that day when the vets said the best thing for Suschi was to put her to sleep. for me...it was like the human race going extinct..something you don't expect....ergo i couldn't imagine that day ever happening.