Do you know how very much I treasure this thread? I couldn't even begin to express what or how much it means to me – and you, all the jewels that post and sparkle on here
I mean
EVERY single 1 of you who have ever posted here – from those who post everyday without fail, those who pop in and out when they have a chance, those that post once in a blue moon and those sadly, who no longer post at all .. and have left either for newer pastures or merely as their interest has waned.
Sometimes, this ocean we all swim in becomes murky, shark-infested, savage and the waves crash down ferociously threatening to drown us all.. Other times, the waters are still, tranquil, pretty and as fun as a day at the seaside (
and I DO like to be beside the seaside!!) .. this all depends on what our girl and our boy do PUBLICALLY .. and how we view/interpret/analyse it.
Truly, I like reading
ALL the posts on here – even the ones I wholeheartedly disagree with (
I just disagree in my own head now as it keeps me slightly sane.. yes, I said slightly .. I know I'm a few fries short of a Happy meal!!!!) .. as each and every one of you have
(like it or lump it!) become part of my extended family
Can I get an awwwwww? :P And actually, I happen to agree with some of
Kelly's insights and disagree with some too. I also totally see where
Oldgirl is coming from too ..
(I feel like the Wizard of Oz, all-seeing!!! HA – when really he was just a normal person! I still feel cheated to this day, about that..) 
I have come to think of John and Josie as my brother and sister
(stupid as that may sound!) .. for the most part, I think the world of them both and could talk to you for months on end about all the reasons I have grown to adore these two but I won't bore you all to tears.. Yes, some days I consider 1 or the other or both to be like a petulant child .. or behaving in a way I hoped they wouldn't
(Yes that is BOTH!) Yet, no matter what .. I'll
ALWAYS care for them, I've come too far now and invested too much time – thinking about, worrying and crying over this pair .. as well as loving them, appreciating them and laughing my lady lumps off at them!
You know what, I could easily list 50 things or more that John and Josie may have said or done that caused their relationship to be torn apart.. I could reel off hurtful, spiteful, petty things they each have said or done in bitterness and anger since splitting up .. but I won't... that just gets ugly and heated and stirs it all up again..
WHY NOT, you ask?
(So very glad that you asked!! And even if you didn't, just humour me and I'll pretend you have!) I'll tell ya! It is just a personal preference of mine as I'd rather talk about the reasons I DO love them – despite all those flaws and failings .. as underneath any of that, if you crack through their hard shells – you'll find inside them both a huge and beautiful heart
(which I hope is healing and happy) with massive emotional scars, wounds, vulnerabilities and insecurities – 1 of the biggest things they have in common.
What now seems like many moons ago, those 2 hearts found, wanted and NEEDED each others .. and it sure was WONDERFUL to watch and follow while it lasted, wasn't it?
As our purty
Pickles says –
ONLY *they* know what really happened (
maybe .. if their memories haven't blurred making them remember events in a distorted way now that the rose-tinted glasses have been thrown off)
As
John says, we know 2/5ths of f**k all and we can all believe what we want to believe.
As
Josie says, it is what it is and it ain't what it ain't .. and you've got to take a bit of rough to appreciate the smooth.
Some day, I hope they'll be able to appreciate the 'smooth' they DID share once .. and not only remember the 'rough' towards the end x x x
PS - Everyone is WRONG about John's tweet :P He was tweeting directly to me .. as he's saying he'd rather die of starvation than beg me to let him have another Maccy D's!!! (The meanie way I did when he was a house guest of mine not so long ago!) *curse you, Johnny!*
