Hi,
I dont think anyone is around at the moment
but i just want to say that i feel able to post again now
(hobviously).
That was a dumb thing to say wasn't it.

I dont know how to explain my absence really.
But i will try my best.

The other day (not sure when) i posted feelings of disapointment
in our pair.
After i had posted i started to feel sooo bad about doing that.
I was disappointed in myself because i wasnt able to detach myself from thinking about
the situation from my point of view rather than theirs.
I was considering my feelings not theirs.
I have no right to do that.
I have been so caught up in what i want for these two people and
i suddenly realised i cant live my life through them.
I felt sooo down and i just couldn't seem to pull myself out of the onset
of my curse that i am prone to suffer from (depression).
I find it hard to talk about it when it starts so i thought i would take
a step away from the thread for a while.
So i did.
After four soul searching days i realised that i am not alone
in this feeling of great affection for John and Josie and that many of us
feel the same sense of dispair at not being able to enable them
to sort their differences out.
I also realised that if i did not have this place i would sink deeper and deeper.
You all mean so much to me, even if i never actually get to meet any of you in the flesh
i feel you are my true friends.
So here i am BACK.

Thank you for all your kind thoughts, i hope my mojo will return in full force soon.
Wishing you ALL a very very Happy New Year and everything you want in life.

Shem xx

Great to see you back Shem All we can do here is keep supporting Josie and John as individuals - no more and no less Hope you carry on posting now - have missed all your stories

Hi Guys Hope everyone has enjoyed Xmas and is ready to bring in the new year.

Just want to wish you all a very Happy New Year and hope health wise 2012 is better than last year.

See you next year

shem have missed you, glad your back your me buddy xx

Hello Sue ,Andrea and Laurels.

Great to be back , i have missed you too.
Whats occurin?

Same to you Laurels.
Have a good time tonight. and come back refreshed tomorrow.
I dare you. xx

Sue you and Mags and Andrea have done really well
keeping thisplace ticking over.

Your post count must be more than mine now.
You put me to shame. luvs yah xx

Don't hold your breath

Same to you - have a great night if you are out celebrating

Don't think I have kept it ticking over

I am off out though now for a quick drink with my sister. Not going out tonight so this is my farewell drink to 2011 (There again I am sure I will be drinking a few glasses of wine in the house tonight )

Glad to have you back Shem, please try not to feel sad as it isn't anything we have any control over. This place isn't the same without you so don't be disappearing again, y'hear?

As always, I'm forever grateful to our thread namesakes for bringing you wonderful wonderful people into my life I really hope they are happy .. and that 2012 will be lots better for them both, that the hate will die down on both sides, that peace will reign.. and that they can FORGIVE each other and make friends in this New Year - life is far too short to spend it being angry and bitter towards someone you once loved so much.

Hope 2012 is exciting and glorious for you all and that I get to meet lots of you in Bristol, Ireland, Scotland and wherever else I get around to Let's keep on LOVING

Leave you with 2 blogs -

http://jjjthejourney-cheekysaucisson...d-night-4.html

http://jjjthejourney-cheekysaucisson...live-feed.html (this one especially, I think has quite a lot of food for thought in!)

Love you all and speak to you in 2012 my pretties xxxxx

PS - Stay safe and don't be toooooo naughty

I am going for some lunch now, will be back for a while later.
Going out tonight (Cousins pub) .
Not stopping long if i can help it, but that will depend on willpower
regarding VODKA tonight.

Cheeky Thank you so much .
Have the ritziest, glitziest, most magical New Year everrrr.
Love you and your writings.
Shem xx

Not long know before another new year begins,cant believe how quick this one as gone.Just want to wish everyone a Happy,Healthy and Proprace New Year and many thanks to u all for keeping this thread going.Long time lurker who only posts now and again will pop in more in 2012.Hope john had agood new year and josie has one dont know what 2012 will bring with these pair but what every happens wishing them both all the best.See you all next year lol luv lynn xx

Shem, so happy you're back, I lose a little interest from time to time, doesn't last long . You do what you have to do to get you back on track . I would just like to wish everyone on the thread past, present, lurkers etc. a very HAPPY NEW YEAR from the bottom of my heart, the best thing I 've done this year was join here and meet so many lovely same minded people, long may it continue . Everyone off out tonight ENJOY the rest I'll probably see here . Maggi. Xxx

Hello JJJat i thought i would pop in and send my best wishes to you all

HAPPY NEW YEAR

May all you wishes come to fruition, work hard , play hard , give generously of your love and time and good things will come to you

Thankyou to all of you that have sat up at night keeping me company , making me laugh , sharing thoughts and news.
One year ago today i finally plucked up courage to post in this thread, i was met by loads of nice welcoming peeps, one year on and most have moved on to other threads or twitter, a few hardy souls remain, i salute you for sticking it out through thick and thin.

Whatever 2012 brings i hope John and Josie find their place in the world and they find happiness and peace

awww shem, so lovely to see you back. you did have us worried there for a bit. as i said in a previous post, if you're feeling low about john & josie, this is the very best place to talk it over, as we are all like minded people & we know exactly how you're feeling. in fact, us on here are probably the only ones who do know. we are the same.....end of
happy new year to you too. lotsa love xxx

You too Miljo.

Yes too right i am in the only place i want to be and that
is here.

Going out tonight but i want to come on here later on as last year was the best New Year i have ever had . I laughed all night.

See you here i hope , even for a couple of posts.xxx

Glad to see you back.

I always feel down at this time of the year as well. I think it is all the build up to Christmas rushing round, seeing all the family then they go and it is nothing again.

Always need to force myself out of it!

You will be pleased to know that I have made a start on one of my New Year's resolutions - decluttering.

Have two filing cabinets both chock a block full, and one is totally in the way. Want to reduce files to one cabinet.

Top drawer of redundant cabinet already empty

What a lovely feeling. We are going to have a bonfire of it all - if it ever stops raining.

Wonder if John still has his filing cabinet and whether it is now fuller or has he had a clear out?

Good for you. I have a deep drawered unit that i have been promising myself i will clear out for the last five years.
God only knows what is in there.
i must make that one of MY new year resolutions.

Has John got a filing cabinet?

thanks for the transcripts cheeky, totally loving 'em, so mwah xxxx

i'm off out myself tonight, so whether or not i'll be in any fit state to even open my lappy

Must think of a few resolutions can only think of one at the moment and that is to get out and about walking a bit more, live in a relatively clutter free house because it's not that big and haven't got much storage space so have to keep on top of things, plus I think I have a bit of OCD things always have to be clean and tidy I make myself sound a bit perfect but I can assure you I'm not. . Maggi. X

I suppose i had better start getting ready.
I am going at 5pm as i am having dinner with my family first
before we go to pub.

I really do want to thank you all for making me feel so welcome.
You really are a lovely bunch you know.

Hope to see a lot of you later on tonight, for a jig and a few laughs.
I did have a whip round with a duster in here and the smut lounge
is clean and tidy (for now).
Got some Jaffas, Avacado pitta's and jelly beans in store cupboard
(you know where it is) and if someone could bring some custard creams
a few cans of lager we will be well set up.

Shemxx

I think you are a bit perfick Mags