Originally Posted by
starfish100:
“Good Morning All 
Thank you so much for the Birthday wishes yesterday Mrs P and LoveChryed. xx
I shouldn't be here but I've also been having a lurk on and off - some interesting conversations going on.
Rhumba, I think I feel pretty much the same as you at the moment. The only thing that didn't ring true for me was Syed being 'too proud' to say he loved Christian and to be honest I felt it was more about the stringing out the episodes at that point. Everything else - it was possible, although of course it would have worked a million times better if they'd been consistently on screen from March to Sept and we'd seen the build up of Syed feeling suffocated by his family, disappointment and confusion over the stall and more of the pressure on him to make that succeed. I'm also of the view that it was his desire to make everything perfect that led him down the path of concealing things from Christian again, and this was ironically because he DID want so much to be this perfect partner, father, etc.....he got things out of perspective and let himself get isolated inside his own head.
I do think as horrible as it was for some people to watch, with everything coming to a head, the money troubles, the wedding looming....it was plausible for me that Syed suddenly had a crazed moment with Danny. I particularly liked the self-sabotage aspect as I do think there was always an element of this with him and if you suffer from low self-esteem or, in Syed's case should I say more accurately, if you are vulnerable to having your self-esteem plummet (and this was activated by Michael's awful speech) - then you can go into self-destruct mode (speaking from experience here....
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). I think Syed saying this would have shown Christian that he was open to having that insight about himself, especially as Christian had brought it up in the previous episode's with the chronic lack of self-confidence comment.
I think Christian was terribly hurt by the timing but I think he did understand what had happened with Syed, and I feel he would have been able to accept that it was perhaps inevitable that Syed had done something like that for a whole host of reasons - as he'd had such a wide range of partners and such freedom, I feel certain he would have been able to forgive and understand. His head would have understood, but his heart would still have hurt for much longer, but I think Syed re-claiming the vows and making it clear he meant his words was the right way to get through to Christian.
I also felt they both were more realistic about themselves, and their relationship dynamics, by the end. I felt a sense of them growing up, facing the hard realities of how they sometimes interracted badly, and having some humour about it all.
The fact that it wasn't all hearts and flowers, made it all the more real for me, and that they understood that despite the messes they sometimes got into, what they had was worth fighting for and it was worth continuing on together.
Thanks for the news about the Masood's being in NYE KBambi - I'd love it if we got a mention of Chryed (only if it's in a good way of course!).
Well, couldn't resist coming on and having a ramble...got to go now and get on with r/l stuff - take care all.
Love has Prevailed. xxx
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Wonderful post Star, I feel pretty much the same, yes.
Bib 1 - This was a flaw, because it appeared so unnecessary. However, I can argue for it.
At this stage Syed was still all over the place and lashing out (at others here too). Perhaps because he was steeped in shame, and also full of obscure resentment as well. 'Yeah, I'm crap, but don't tell me what to do'.
I see all this now as sort of shame hangover, which he reacted to in a teenagery petulant way, AND he was still confused about his own motives about it all.
Now it wasn't good and it wasn't attractive, but, well, not totally unrealistic or OOC.
He was seen after this drastically, and seriously considering and accepting what he wanted and making HUGE steps to act in an adult way, to build a serious, honest relationship with Christian. He said several times that he'd been having a serious think about it all, and it showed.
This was glorious to me, because it was this abandonment of self destructive, self absorbed behaviour, and positive movement forward, in spite of the awful events, that gave me proper faith in Syed (again).
As a character and a man who could SEE himself and who wanted to be the best of himself and who really loved and wanted Christian.
So for me in a sense it WAS pride, which is a very brittle thing.
I had a friend who I used to joke with about life (when ours were both rather messed up) and we used to say, 'I have my PRIDE, no self respect but PRIDE', and we'd laugh like drains, because it was sort of true.
And meant in the same sort of a way. And that sort of 'pride' is self sabotaging, they sort of go together.
Yep, I could see this, and accept it as this.