well i may as well make this my moving home journal, but it is partly madonna related.
the packing up process is going well, but a had a row with one of the neighbours earlier. i don't recall how much i have told you about the troubles i have had living here, but for example, one neighbour goes through my sealed bin bags on a weekly basis (and everybody else's for that matter) and then complains about the amount of recyclable items i bin, as if going through peoples rubbish is the most natural thing in the world.

in fairness, i do my bit recycling wise, but i could do a lot more in all honesty and the last time i caught him going through my bins. i took great delight in telling him it would no longer be an issue, since i was leaving.
another neighbour, who lives directly underneath me complained to me in person the first week i moved here, due to my washing machine being on late at night and i promised to not have the machine on beyond 9pm in the future, which i have adhered too. then she reported a "flood" coming from my bathroom over the christmas period, so i had cut my break away short and rush back from wales fearing the worst, only to find my bathroom bone dry.

the emergency plumber (that was unnecessarily called out over a "leak" rather than a "flood") said that the seal on the bath was not doing its job and that the tiles had worked loose, so from then on a shower has been out of the question. my landlords have been informed of this situation umpteen times and i have only ever bathed since that leak.
the same christmas, i bought a big ipod dock out of my christmas money. however, every time i have used the speaker, this neighbour has either posted notes under the door or sent her daughter up to speak about the "noise". on every occasion i have used the dock it has been during the daytime, except one time when i was playing my madonna "ballads" playlist at 7:30pm and the volume has only ever been to a 3rd of its capacity at the maximum!
in the end, i bought a pair of wireless earphones to listen to my music, while I do the cleaning. to be honest, when I am cleaning, that is the only time I like to play my music really loud to drowned out the sound of the hoover! as you can see from this
picture, I raised the speaker off the ground onto storage boxes to avoid the "vibrations" this woman speaks of, but like i said to the neighbour during our exchange, thursday cannot come fast enough.
part of me did think f**k it earlier and i used the dock again for the first time in months (with "confessions" being my motivational album of choice), because i thought this time next week i will be gone, but when she was knocking my door within an hour of the speaker being in use, i just saw red.

i told her she would be pleased to hear that I am moving next week and the exchange just escalated from there really.
I don't why I am telling you all of this, madonna would no doubt consider my confession a "cathartic" process.

perhaps i owe some people, including one or two of my neighbours

and some people here an apology. its not really untrue to suggest that perhaps at times when i am provoked i can be "unpleasant" and i certainly am "over-sensitive" at times too. perhaps with age, i have become less tolerant of people quirks and i do take things too personally when people are targeting nobody specifically.
however, i still feel happy about the move and do feel that my act of kindness towards the neighbours i have become fond of, paints me in more positive light. i do have a caring side, a work colleague of mine was off sick this week and because i know he lives alone, i popped in just to check on him with a "get well" card. being a sufferer of stress and anxiety, (for which i take prescription medication for), moving is always particularly stressful for me and perhaps that has exasperated me a bit in general most recently. i would however, like to think that other people could take a step back sometimes and do some self analysis, like i have done here, but then, i have always been my own worst critic.
so in conclusion, i guess i am all the things that people say/write about me, i am complex, sometimes aggressive (but never physically), i can be terminally negative, i do hold onto grudges and then i can surprise everyone by being the complete opposite. wouldn't it be boring if we were all the same?

i am now chilling with my madonna "ballads playlist, with my headphones on of course.