I initially thought Spector was faking the memory loss, especially when his first grab of the nurse (Aisling Bea's character) when he woke up was really strong, yet later on when she was doing checks on his hand the squeezes by him were weak. I thought this was part of him pretending to be physically weak so he can lure people into a false sense of safety around him. However when his tears came (when daughter was with him) I thought that was implying the memory loss was in fact genuine (because he had reverted to the normal human Paul that could cry pre-killing, as opposed to still being the physco killer that prob wouldn't be able to spontaneously shed the tears). Maybe it will be revealed he was faking it and really was that good.
I really hope we're not going to see this nurse fall for Spector, that would be so typical, especially if she really does think he's lost his memory and hence presumes he is no threat to her if is set back in time of his killer self. I think this notion that he's irresistible to any female just because he's not an ugly killer is so strange and unconvincing. Even the way he acts with people before he kills them or even if has no intention to kill them seems somewhat off-ish, and therefore to me wouldn't seem like the type of guy that woman would universally like (some obv yes, there always will be some, but not universally). Maybe I'm wrongly presuming the air of creepiness of him is meant to be just shared with the viewers and not being translated to others around him (victims or otherwise). I guess as viewers we're still meant to believe that he's fooled everyone with his quiet, softly spoken and physically nonthreatening act, but I personally do find this trust in us as viewers to still think he has this power of intrigue about him over others a bit thin now, unless the writer creator actually thinks we're as unaware as his female victims.
The crazed baby sitter fan is just adding to this show's really flimsy portrayal of females. Lots of the female focuses, with the exception of Farrington who is gay, is under some spell (whether romantically, family wise or otherly) of Paul. Even the flipping nurse is not immune to him. There is this focus on Stella's issues with men which no doubt Spector will reveal, but what about the focus to reveal why Spector (pre-memory loss) hates women, or certain types of women enough to kill them. Stella has random sex with guys (which is fine in general) but with her character we're being led to believe it's more related to the Daddy issues she has, rather than just seeing it as a natural sex drive/de-stresser in her as would naturally assume of a man that had regular no strings attached sex. The audience are meant to find her questionable as a professional because of her underlying issues with men and misuse of then sexually, but on the other hand Paul kills women & yet the audience are meant to fancy him, feel sorry for him when he's vulnerable in hospital nearly dead and question whether we should hate him because he loves his daughter (and that small amount of humanity in him lets us dismiss the side of himself that hurts people literally to death).
Stella I suppose is the flawed lead, which is fine (plenty of shows have them), but I do find it strange the contrast between Stella and Spector and this aligning of sympathy with him as a troubled soul more than anyone else. I'm prob reading too much into the tone of the messages we're being told, but I do feel this sense that too many of these women around Paul are being made as unlikable to the audience as him and therefore in a sense deserving of the pain he eventually has on the them (in whatever form) because he's damaged and physically attractive. I bet some viewers would rather see the babysitter die or live a life of misery and resentment more than Paul Spector (even though she's prob as damaged as him, but with no sympathy for it because she's not brooding in her evilness).
I do love this show, and have no problem with them basically saying there is sometimes a grey/fine lines between the sides of good and bad people (like most crime dramas do now with police/law vs killer/dodgy person), but I just find this romantic aurora around spector's character strange more than anything.
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