Been a tough week for Imogen. Not much appreciation going around. Depreciation seems to be the order of the day. And really she's brought it all down on herself. Sad.
Not sure how I feel about it at all.

One moment I want to throttle her, the next hug her. So I'm just gonna leave this open for a while and write the random un-thought out things that pass through my aching brain (got a cold that ain't helping!

) and see if that helps any.
Let's get rambling...
Very disappointed she got herself involved, and stayed involved, with a man she knew was high profile and married. At least with one that appears to be still living with his wife. Thought she'd know better. (Least she's admitted it was wrong.) Sounds too like she had every opportunity, and tried, to get out of the situation, but didn't. Maybe, like a lot of married men having affairs, he was promising her the world, moon, stars, universe, whatever it took to keep her sweet. She's said she did fall in love, guess making it even harder to extricate herself. Heart and emotion taking over from brain? (Gonna have to read OK and the like to find out.) Gotta say too that surely the guy realised HE was married. He should have got out of the situation too. And I'm not sure he fell in love with Imogen. Well not enough. The gagging order, I think, points to that.
Now I am a child of parents that broke up because of an affair. My Dad's. Should I hate all women who have affairs with married men? Apparently not. My Dad married his 'mistress' and although I wanted to hate her I ended up liking her. She wasn't the bad person I thought she was. We're still good friends now, even though she and my Dad eventually divorced. hmmm Guess I don't hate Imogen either.
As angry as I sometimes am with her over this mess, I have great sympathy for her over the whole gagging order situation. From someone you thought loves you, that's devastating. But the wolves of the press can still report all about her. Totally unfair! Two to tango, two to face the music. Thought gagging orders were for ongoing criminal cases. Not protecting the blushes of married men. Don't do the crime if you can't face the headline!
That gagging order is under review later today. And having said all that I'm not sure anymore whether I want it to stay or go. From Imogen's point of view can't decide which would now be better for her. Could get ugly.
Going back to BB7 I've hated seeing Imogen upset. That doesn't appear to have changed. I have sent her little messages of support. haha Just a big softie really. But I really got hooked by BB7, and Imogen most of all. It was a slow start, but I really grew to like her more than any other person, although maybe not contestant, on any BB. And being able to watch BB almost 24/7 that year she kind of worked her way into my heart. See. Big softie.

Not mentioned this before, but on rare occasions little looks, mannerisms, reminding me of my Aunt (who succumed to cancer) probably opened up the old heart a little easier. But it was Imogen herself that dove right in.
Men can be big trouble for Imogen. They say things come in three's. Tape. Married man. God the next one could be a real humdinger! Maybe she should have a personal advisor or chaparone with her at all times.

Might consider that.
Gotta wonder how this is going to effect the fundraising event Imogen was arranging for Childrens Hospices UK. Something she was working really hard on. Will it still be able to go ahead now? Will the people Imogen wanted to be there still come? Or disown her? Cos it was important to her and is for a good cause.
So where does that leave me and my appreciation? Rat leaving a sinking ship? Captain going down with the boat? Marooned on a desert island? No idea! So much of what I wrote tonight has been deleated or edited to death, don't know which way I'm facing. But I was taught not to kick people when they're down. And I'm not a fair weather friend. So, raise the sail and see where the wind takes me? (Cue Rod - I am sailing,.....I am sailing, stormy waters...)
Now, this IS an appreciation thread, so...
Imogen is shrouded by sadness at the moment. Not good for pictures perhaps. Yet in some I've seen she still manages to be, kind of hauntingly beautiful. Not fare, how does she do it? See, now I could throttle her again.
And for the record I'm still appreciating my Imogen calendar. It's very useful, keeping me abreast of date and day. Hanging on the wall, just over my right shoulder, it's felt like Imogen's been keeping an eye on me, making sure I don't get up to any mischief. Ah! So that's it.

All this fuss is my fault. Imogen's been so busy keeping me in check she forget to check herself!
So sorry Imogen.
(Oh dear. Quarter to four in the morning, flying on cold remedies and pills, and what nonsense. No rhyme, no reason, no sense, no point ... I've no hope!!!
Please someone put me out of my misery. Now where's that lemsip....)