Originally Posted by missglitter:
“I can't speak for Nikki, but I can offer a little bit of insight to the illness, from my own long struggle with it. All I can say is that during my recovery, I have been incredibly childish, selfish and aggressive. Anorexia effectively stunts your maturity at the age it starts, and when you stop using anorexia as a coping method you sort of return to the age you were when it began - even if you are now an adult. You sort of have to do your growing up all over again because you never learned how to deal with life properly because you were so focused on maintaining your eating disorder. I'm not making excuses for Nikki, but I'm just saying that I really recognise many aspects of her behaviour with my own experience and fellow sufferer's actions as well, and it does seem fairly typical of someone who has suffered from an eating disorder in the past.”
Originally Posted by catspaw:
“Added to which anorexia and OCD are addictive illnesses just like alcholism or drug dependency; sufferers are never genuinely cured, but have to learn to control their addictions. Hence the ritualistic and strictly adhered to eating habits, the need to drink water from a specific glass and in a specific way and so on. The chances are that, if Nikki didn't follow the very strict routine she's carved out for herself, she'd relapse. Addicts of any kind also tend to have incredibly low self-esteem, and need to indulge their needs or find something else to feel the 'gap' simply to feel less bad about themselves. And, if things go off track, all hell can break loose.
I feel desperately sorry for Nikki. I don't think it's all an act in the true sense of the word. I think it's evidence that the illness is still with her mentally, even if it's no longer apparent physically - she may have learnt to eat and not to wash her hands every 5 minutes, but the psychological facets of the illness are still very much there.”
i found these old posts and found them quite interesting and explained alot