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I Find New Year Sad & Depressing
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OK, so its now the new year and as i type i can hear fireworks and people cheering (i can also hear police sirens and some rain!:p) and i can honestly say i don't see what the excitement can possibly be. I find it all very sad rather than a reason to celebrate. 2013 is gone forever and its another year of life gone forever, another year i can't ever get back. Ok so 2014 is a brand new year but before any of us has time to barely even blink we'll be listening to fireworks and cheering for 2015. Time goes way too fast, doesn't hang around for anyone.
Enjoy 2014 guys, here it is, this is it and soon it will also be gone forever.
Enjoy 2014 guys, here it is, this is it and soon it will also be gone forever.
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Yup... That's why I don't understand the big celebration over new year... It's not as though anything changes. It's just... the same. with a new number added to the end of the date.
So far avoided the sobbing I normally do
2013 was by far the worse year. Mum being very ill for most of it
i'm trying to remain more positive this year see if that makes any difference.
I said i find it depressing, but i am not actually depressed as such just over a new year. Just that it is not something i feel i want to cheer about
I've been on my own all night. Although it would've been nice to spend it with someone special, maybe I will next year (that's what I said in 2012)
I also hate that song Auld Lang Syne. I'm on a right downer tonight
Sorry, you said you found it sad and depressing. I misunderstood.
God I hate billy bunts with fireworks.
Apparently so .
Last year, some people were still firing them off at 3am.
The older I get the more my regrets pile up...I was never young so ageing is a living death to me. My life is one of failure; I hate mundanity and tedium and yet I have been trapped in it by the narcissistic behaviour of family.
Each year I hope will be my last on this Earth, because my social anxiety and depression have continuously got worse and worse for the past 25 years.
If Quantum theories are correct we never actually die anyway as consciousness is all that exists and thus infinite.
haha, Pink Floyd!
Life is what you make it.
I was going to post about how new year makes me feel but I honestly don't think I can top this.
We have a winner.
Can't you leave your family? Sorry if that sounds crass, but you have to put your own life first.
but a lot of the time outside forces make that impossible.
Maybe easier if you have loads of money but when you rely on things like the NHS and the painfully slow processes that often creates 3 months go in a blink of an eye.
FFS indeed. I'm one year behind you. FFS.
This summer I was talking with a few friends of a similar age to me (mid 40's) about regrets, and so on, at the leaving do for a colleague at the local pub to work. I said I wish I'd learned to play a musical instrument when I was younger, and I wasn't the only one. I suddenly realised that there was no reason I couldn't start now if I wanted to.
That evening I bought a guitar and started learning to play within the week. I still suck at it after six months, but it's one thing I now no longer have to regret not doing. It's also helped me with my perfectionism.
I've suffered from social anxiety as long as I can remember. It was so bad when I was younger that my earliest memories are of hiding away from any visitors to the family home, and I couldn't eat around non family members until I was in my early 20's.
Through throwing myself into uncomfortable social situations whenever I can (including that time I went to a naturist beach, but that's another story...), I'm slowly getting to the point where I can see a time where it won't limit me any longer, but it's been an enemy that I've been fighting for many decades, and it takes constant effort not to lapse back into behaviours and negative thinking that will erode my efforts. Like fighting the flab, but with more hiding.
DS actually helps with that as well. It helps maintain my newly thickened skin .